I'm Beautiful!!

In today's world there are so many things working against young girls. There are body image issues, there is peer pressure, there are celebrities that are younger and younger every year acting like they are YEARS older than they really are. Having a two year old girl these are the things that I think about. I think about the things that will be ailing my daughter 12-13 years from now.

I have dealt with year's of depression and self image issues. I honestly didn't ever thing that I would get through those issues. It just seemed like no matter how many people I talked to, how many medications I was prescribed, that it was NEVER going to get better. Then one day I found out I was pregnant... after only knowing my boyfriend for two months... let the panic set in. I did not know it at the time, but this turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me. This little girl has given me a reason to live, and she has turned me around. She also scares the crap out of me. I do not ever want my daughter, or my other children I might have down the road to have to deal with these issues.

I tell my daughter everyday that she is beautiful, I want her to know that no matter what she might think or when she gets older what people might tell her that she is beautiful. Last night on the way home I was telling her that she was perfect, and she responded with something that reminded me of just how pure her innocence is. 

Mom: "Baby Bean you are perfect!"

Baby Bean: "No I'm not"

Mom: "Yes you are, at least mommy thinks you are"

Baby Bean: "No I'm not, I'm Beautiful!"


See, I knew that this was going to work out in my favor someday, it's the little things like that that make me love her for who she is.

As a parent I just need to keep doing anything I can to remind her that she is perfect and she is beautiful, someday she will look at these things and be glad that I did them, my mom did those things for me and I am sure glad that she did.

Just another day in the life of a crazy Bride

We are getting so close to "dooms day" as my Fiance appropriatly keeps calling it. Only 11 more days to go, and so far I have been able to keep my sanity. I am going to try and start doing some more blogging, I am thinking about picking an interesting topic and blogging daily... here to hoping that this will be something stable and interesting in my life, so far my ideas are to blog about being the mother of a two year old, I've thought about blogging about running, but I tend to not keep up with my running enough to really make that worth my time, or I have thought about writing about online shopping deals because I spend all my time looking for them now that I'm planning my wedding. :)

Well here is to an new endeavor in my life!